BORED AND FRUSTRATED
I'm extremely bored tonight, I don't know if it's that 1-0 hockey game that did it to me, or the day I had at work. I feel tired, and yet I had a good night sleep last night. Anti-social activities are really starting to wear me out. I feel the need to go out and meet people during my time off, yet I don't have the motivation. I never have been much of the talker, but I've never been this bad. MSN Messanger is starting to become my most social activity of the day, including work.
I don't know what it is, but even many activities that shouldn't be boring have felt that way for me lately. Today I was practically falling asleep in front of the computer at work. I feel like I should be doing even more, although I'm a pretty busy person. Even as I'm typing this I feel like I could fall asleep, it's pathetic I know. And most of you reading this will probably agree, and don't care that much I know. A lot of people don't understand me, and I just accept that. We all live very different lives. It's just everything that is the same old, and I feel my life is like that too.
Despite the rapid changes that have occured, I've felt that over the last couple weeks things have been much the same. The same stupid shows on T.V., the same deal at work, and so on. It's like deja vu 24/7 since I've been back from PG. But oh well.
I'm just suffering from a lack of motivation at the time, I don't feel the need to do certain activities because the rewards at the end don't seem to be worth it. If the reward is worth less than the effort involved, than why bother?
I don't know why I have gotten to be this way, I can turn things around though. I do intend to. I just tend to procrastinate, and it's a tough habit to break. I just feel a lack of support from others at times, and that some people don't understand me. Sometimes I look at myself and I think if I weren't so boring, things wouldn't be so boring. Most people I talk to never seem to be that interested, maybe that's why I'm still single after so long. I seem to never have a real interesting story to tell. I like to think I can be a fun and entertaining person to be around, but maybe not. I need some excitement in my life, and I need it now. I'll admit I'm fortunate to have this job, but my life outside of work is pretty plain. I need some excitement and I need some NOW!
I'm extremely bored tonight, I don't know if it's that 1-0 hockey game that did it to me, or the day I had at work. I feel tired, and yet I had a good night sleep last night. Anti-social activities are really starting to wear me out. I feel the need to go out and meet people during my time off, yet I don't have the motivation. I never have been much of the talker, but I've never been this bad. MSN Messanger is starting to become my most social activity of the day, including work.
I don't know what it is, but even many activities that shouldn't be boring have felt that way for me lately. Today I was practically falling asleep in front of the computer at work. I feel like I should be doing even more, although I'm a pretty busy person. Even as I'm typing this I feel like I could fall asleep, it's pathetic I know. And most of you reading this will probably agree, and don't care that much I know. A lot of people don't understand me, and I just accept that. We all live very different lives. It's just everything that is the same old, and I feel my life is like that too.
Despite the rapid changes that have occured, I've felt that over the last couple weeks things have been much the same. The same stupid shows on T.V., the same deal at work, and so on. It's like deja vu 24/7 since I've been back from PG. But oh well.
I'm just suffering from a lack of motivation at the time, I don't feel the need to do certain activities because the rewards at the end don't seem to be worth it. If the reward is worth less than the effort involved, than why bother?
I don't know why I have gotten to be this way, I can turn things around though. I do intend to. I just tend to procrastinate, and it's a tough habit to break. I just feel a lack of support from others at times, and that some people don't understand me. Sometimes I look at myself and I think if I weren't so boring, things wouldn't be so boring. Most people I talk to never seem to be that interested, maybe that's why I'm still single after so long. I seem to never have a real interesting story to tell. I like to think I can be a fun and entertaining person to be around, but maybe not. I need some excitement in my life, and I need it now. I'll admit I'm fortunate to have this job, but my life outside of work is pretty plain. I need some excitement and I need some NOW!
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